Am I skinny yet?

Hey ya'll. So it's week 2 of the Body Transformation challenge and I decided to come and update ya'll on what's been going on...Sorry it took so long, it's just that my body has been in shock from all this exercise and I think it's finally outta shock!! LOL.

So, I "officially" weighed in with my trainer at 299...I know...shocker cuz I look like I'm only 295 huh?! Yeah, I was a little surprised. Actually, for the past 4 years and past 3 pregnancies, the 290's have been my average weight. So, it wasn't that much of a surprise. On Monday Jan 10th I went into the Gold's Gym in Sugarhouse to meet my trainer Ben and to workout for the first time with him....well, that's what I THOUGHT I was gonna go in and do. I didn't know that I was gonna go in and throw up, pass out and die!!! Ya'll think I'm lying....OMG...after the first 5 minutes, I thought that I was gonna survive. 5 minutes after that, I was wondering where the nearest emergency exit was so that I can tell the ambulance which door to pick me up from!!! THIS GUY FREAKEN HATES ME!!! That was my initial thought. I thought, DUDE, he hates fat people, ESPECIALLY ME!!! He was working me like I was an athlete and this was AFTER I told him that I hadn't worked out in over a year and before that it was very few and far between. He had NO LOVE!! We were balls to the walls the whole time. About 25 minutes into the workout I told him that I didn't feel right and that I thought I was gonna pass out, so he let me sit down and catch my breath. He asked if I wanted to walk to the drinking fountain and get a drink and when I looked up and saw the drinking fountain, even though it was only about 15 yards from where I was sitting, it felt like it was a million years away. I forced myself to get up and go get a drink. As soon as the drink was done we continued to work out....then my hearing started going in and out. LOL...I WAS DYING!!! I think that's a sign that yer about to pass out....he was talking but all I saw was moving lips and now sound. OOOHHH....just talking about it is bringing back bad memories....Long story short, we only worked out for about 40 minutes...and that time INCLUDES the time I took to sit down and catch my breath and get my drink of water...so really, I only worked out for about 30 minutes. When I was done, I was feeling like throwing up, my whole body was shaking; I think it was in utter and complete shock!! I knew I wouldnt be able to drive home, so I had a friend pick up my husband and drop him off to the gym to come and drive me home....yup...that's how bad it was!!!

I did NOT know that I was going there to DIE!!! I'm so glad he ended early. I didnt wanna go back for day 2 but I went and every day that I went last week got easier and easier. I still struggle with stamina and strength but Ben pushes me to my limit every time and I notice my stamina and strength getting better and better. I have been soooo SORE for a whole week STRAIGHT but I love it. It's the only kind of sore the I love. My friends keep asking me what kind of exercise that I do and my answer is SO honest..."I don't even know". LOL. I don't know if it's my mind just trying to forget what the hell it just did or what, but for the life of me I cannot tell them every exercise we did. I may remember a move or two but we do SO much in that hour and it's so hard core that I totally forget what we do. All I look forward to is for that damn clock to hit 6:30pm so that I can leave.

I've been living off of rabbit food (salads, veggies and fruits) and water and been exercising all week but I was so nervous about weigh in today. I wasnt sure that I had lost anything but today on the show I weighed in at 290...that's 9 pounds in a week!! YAAAAAAAY-UH!!! The only problem with that is that now Ben wants me to lose that much EVERY WEEK!!! Dude, I'm telling you, this guys is SUPER NUTS!!! But that will be my goal...I dont think its possible but I like to still set my goal high, so that I am at least WORKING for it. And if I only lose 4 or 5 pounds, hey...its still 4 or 5 pounds. I dont wanna set it for 4 or 5 cuz then I'll only work "4 or 5" level. Get what I'm saying?! okay..good.

Well, all of us 6 contestants are doing good and I am happy for that. I keep waking up thinking "Am I skinny yet?" but I know that if I work super hard, that one of these days I will wake up thinking "WOW, I'm skinny" :)